too young

i wish that this was not something that i had to write about but i guess that is the best way to get out what i feel about it. over the weekend my cousin frank was killed in a car accident in germany. he was only 17.

he and four of his friends were having a competition to see who could drive the fastest and were each taking turns driving. one of them was drunk he lost control hit a tree and the car landed in the river. my cousin broke his neck. another one of the boys died and the driver is badly injured the other two were unharmed...not a scratch.

it is a situation like this that makes me afraid to become a parent. my aunt and uncle are destroyed and my father is scared. he is scared because he realizes that this could happen to one of his own children. i complain when my dad gives me the seech about getting in a car with someone whose been drinking but deep down i appreciate it....especially right now.

it is hard for me to imagine what my aunt and uncle must be going through...or what my cousin mark is going through having lost his brother. i wonder what effect this loss will have on their family and on our family as a whole.

i did not know my cousin frank all that well and even though it sounds stupid i wish i would have known him better. he seemed like he was growing up to be a pretty cool person when i saw him in january at the wedding. unfortunately i will not be able to get to know him better and for that i am sad.

so to all my friends and family... i love you and am glad i know you. just in case you didn't know.

xo rachie

all things must come to an end

so tomorrow is my last day of work at the job that i have had on and off for three years. thats a long time and the question that i have been asked recently is will i miss it and the answer is a resounding NO!!! i am well aware that offce politics abound whereever you work but i think that micheal's takes the cake in terms of office ploticing. by the end of it i am so sick of all the bullshit that i could not be more excited to move on.
but at the same time that i am excited i am also scared shitless. new things that i haven't done before freak me out but at the same time how hard is it to be a receptionist? i guess we'll see on monday.
xo rachie