at work

right now i am at work. its saturday and its 30 plus degrees out and i am at work in an office where the airconditioner does not work. i really want to be outside enjoying the weather but that is left to by bosses who get to go out of town and actually have something that resembles an enjoyable weekend. but i am not bitter at all really.... i hope that they are enjoying the fantastic weather that we are having. i think that part of the reason that i am feeling bitter is because work is so fucking boring...i am here for four hours and on most days i feel like its a complete waste of my time. because in four hours the phone will ring probably three times and i will be visited by two people...that barely even equals a person an hour. can someone explain to me how this (being open on saturday) is worth it for me or smart in a business sense for my bosses. if there is a good reason then can someone please enlighten me? because i plain and simple just don't get it.
anyway...i should get to some more cleaning....
xo rachie

rachel

Here is what my name means in the dictionary....i never knew people could be fussy.

Rachel -- [adjective]: Fuzzy to the touch 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

xo rachie

those kind of people

the other day i got a phone call from a friend of mine. for the purposes of this post i will call her jane.* now jane and i have been friends for a while now and i have helped her out of many situations that most people would call precarious, but not jane, to her they are just kind of normal. but that is not what this post is about, i am getting off topic. she called me the other day freaking out, literally in state of panic. now as we spoke i asked myself what could be so wrong that she called me in such a panic...honestly i was a bit concerned. so needless to say i asked her what was wrong...that my friends was my first and really only mistake.
Her response to my concern was that she had gained some weight...stupidly i asked how much...now i ask you intellegent people to guess the amount of weight that led to such a drastic reaction....

come on guess....
20 pounds? NO
30 pounds? NO
50 pounds? NO * by the way these are all reasonable responses... but the answer my friends is...drumroll please...
THREE POUNDS
it took all of me not to hang up the phone...
i talked to her until i couldn't deal with it anymore...which was about 2 mins...what i really wanted to say the whole time was "go fuck yourself." so jane* through this post on my blog for the whole internet to read i say....

GO FUCK YOURSELF AND YOUR THREE POUNDS

i feel much better now.....sigh
xo rachie

too young

i wish that this was not something that i had to write about but i guess that is the best way to get out what i feel about it. over the weekend my cousin frank was killed in a car accident in germany. he was only 17.

he and four of his friends were having a competition to see who could drive the fastest and were each taking turns driving. one of them was drunk he lost control hit a tree and the car landed in the river. my cousin broke his neck. another one of the boys died and the driver is badly injured the other two were unharmed...not a scratch.

it is a situation like this that makes me afraid to become a parent. my aunt and uncle are destroyed and my father is scared. he is scared because he realizes that this could happen to one of his own children. i complain when my dad gives me the seech about getting in a car with someone whose been drinking but deep down i appreciate it....especially right now.

it is hard for me to imagine what my aunt and uncle must be going through...or what my cousin mark is going through having lost his brother. i wonder what effect this loss will have on their family and on our family as a whole.

i did not know my cousin frank all that well and even though it sounds stupid i wish i would have known him better. he seemed like he was growing up to be a pretty cool person when i saw him in january at the wedding. unfortunately i will not be able to get to know him better and for that i am sad.

so to all my friends and family... i love you and am glad i know you. just in case you didn't know.

xo rachie

all things must come to an end

so tomorrow is my last day of work at the job that i have had on and off for three years. thats a long time and the question that i have been asked recently is will i miss it and the answer is a resounding NO!!! i am well aware that offce politics abound whereever you work but i think that micheal's takes the cake in terms of office ploticing. by the end of it i am so sick of all the bullshit that i could not be more excited to move on.
but at the same time that i am excited i am also scared shitless. new things that i haven't done before freak me out but at the same time how hard is it to be a receptionist? i guess we'll see on monday.
xo rachie

ain't it funny

okay so i know thats the title of a jennifer lopez song but moving on...
isn't it weird how if you don't talk to someone for a really long time and you know there is something unfinished between you you still don't make the effort. I was thinking about this tonight as i chatted on msn with a person that at one point i would have considered a good friend but that i haven't talked to in ages. We had a really good chat one of those total catch up chats that happen like every six months to a year. Except i think in this case its probably like a year and a half or so.
I quit today and i am home alone all weeekend so perhaps i am just being philosophical or something. or maybe i just need to sleep. but either way it got me thinking is time or timing ever really an issue or was einstien right and its all relative?!?!
xo rachie

to quit or not to quit?

i went for this interview today and i basically have a full time job from the beginning of may til the middle of august if i want it. I just don't know what to do cause i may give work my notice and then she may tell me that she has found someone else so do i wait or just give my notice and hpe for the best? i hate job hunting and the lack of plan is slowly killing me!! maybe i will email her tomorrow and clarify some things. sounds good to me what do all you fine people think i should do?
xo rachie

so there are two weeks left

so there are two weeks left of this insanity. i am so stressed but onto another subject...we are all in the same boat no use in complaining right.
anyway so i think it is important to relaize that in two weeks we will be offically on summer vacation (wooooot woooot) i love summer vacation even if it means that i work in a dead end job!!! Because hopefully this year it actually means that i get a vacation!!! i really want to go to germany this summer (i have to find some way to use the large amounts of german i have learned this year.) anyway just remember two weeks and then we are free for four months!!!
what are you up to this summer?
xo rachie

may we unite in the spirit of procrastination

this is jsut a quick note to let all of my dear friends know that they are not alone in the world that is procrastination. I am also in the midst of distinctly large degrees of procrastination. Luckily, for me though my german paper is now due on thursday so i have a little bit more time then perhaps some of you. But, just so that you are all aware the 20 page paper has begun to rear its ugly head...so soon i will have to leave the happy land of procrastination and get my ass in gear. but until that day comes (sunday) i bid you all good night and happy procrastinating!!!
xo rachie

frickin' sick again

well this weekend brought a common occurence back into my life which i vowed would not happen in march...i got sick again. on friday i went out for dinner with my dad, sandy, nicole, sara and michelle for indian food at India Grill. it was really, really good but i felt sick pretty much from the time we got home but i thought that it was just the fact that i had had so much to eat because michelle siad that she felt not so great either, but hers went away and she went out.

About 2 hours later...so like 10 my yucky feeling hadn't gone away and well i started to throw up this previously very appetizing dinner. i hate being sick (especially throwing up) so i was a big baby and i called my mom. she came over and brought all the right things water, gingerale, gravol, tylenol so i took some gravol and was actually feeling better, or so i thought.

I spent the rest of the night with my head in the toilet and missed first aid on saturday morning and preceeded to get yelled at on sunday by my boss. it was a great fucking weekend!!!!

how was yours?

xo rachie

and the oscar goes to....

well last night was one of my favorite nights of the year...THE OSCARS. i normally get bored during the show though so i watch the beginning with best supporting actor and actress and costumes and makeup and all the documentaries and foreign film (the german movie didn't win...tear) then i watch other things for 2 hours and then i watch the good awards like besta actress and actor and director and movie and such.
Last night brought with it many suprises:
George Clooney- best supporting actor
Rachel Weiz- best supporting actress
Reese Witherspoon- best actress
Philip Seymour Hoffman- best actor
Ang Lee- best director
Crash- best picture
i was suprised that crash won as i expected that brokeback mountain would take the oscar for best picture. i suppose that this can been seen as quite an upset. but i am happy either way crash is a good movie too so its okay and plus paul haggis (the director) is canadian so thats wicked!!!
what did you all think of the oscars?
xo rachie

now its march

well it is now march and so that means that its time to reflect on the month of February, also known as the month in my life where nothing and i mean nothing got done. or at the very least it feels that way. February is never really a good month and there are a few reasons why:
1. its short...how can you get anything done in 28 days
2. February has reading week which is just a breeding ground for procrastination
3. its fucking cold...in fact it has been the coldest month of the winter
4. it has Valentine's day...or the biggest hallmark holiday
5. i was sick the entire month

so heres hoping that march will bring:
1. warm weather
2. lots of green beer and luck for St. Patrick's Day
3. complete lack of illness
and
4. lots of schoolwork done
march...i have high hopes for you...so you better not let me down!

olivier daschund

i got a penguin!
i got a penguin!

he's cuter than you!

...and if you push off the iceberg he bobs up and down!

to bad blogger hates him.

thankfully, my sista has been generous enough to let him live at her myspace page and be friend with her pig theresa.

go visit him there!!

xo rachie

what are they staring at?

do i have something on my face? mascara seeping from my eye sockets? WHAT?!?!?!(is it that obvious that i feel like death warmed over?) i have no idea. but all day yesterday whenever i left the house (which really means all day at school) i got the weirdest looks. And then i remembered...i chopped all my hair off and even though it is a perfectly normal thing ( i see tons of girls with short hair all the time) i think to some people its still a novelty.But do you really have to stare at me until your eyes are boring into the back of my short-haired head...seriously is it really necessary? seriously i love it...in fact i missed it (i had short hair for nearly 10 years...thats almost half my life!!!!) but i would rather you comment then just stare blankly at me until i get scared and want to run away and curl up in the fetal position in my closet.

Oh...and if for some reason it looks bad just tell me...i would rather know then walk around having a bad hair day! THANKS!!!
xo rachie

to....

apply or not to apply....
tell or not to tell....
ask or not to ask....
can someone please tell me what to do?

SO SICK!!!

i am so sick its not even funny....have any of you ever heard of sinusitus...cause i don't actually know what the hell it is cause when i went to the doctor he never really told me and if he did i couldn't understand him anyway (strange eastern european accent) so now i am on antibiotics and i feel like crap. so i hope that the majority of you had a better week then me and i will see you all on monday.
xo rachie

random

so i find it very interesting every time that i update this thing to look at random peoples blogs. i think that looking at other peoples blogs can show us a lot about the wide world that we live in because it sometimes seems like we think we are the only ones...and when you look around a bit you see that there are milions of people like you who leave their randomness out there for all to see too.
So next time you write in your blog or are reading someones click on NEXT BLOG and see what you can discover abot others in this big wide world of ours.
xo rachie

WHAT THE FUCK....LITERALLY

okay so i was watching the news today...yes this was a story on our good old edmonton news and i was alittle bit perplexed!?!?!?!? Now i am as big a fan of the text message as the next person in fact i text more then i phone some people but i would never have sex over a text message, or as the news likes to call it textual intercourse. Now i understand that text messages provide the cell phone user with a way to send private messages to those they are closest to discretly but i just can't imagine sending my significant other or even the man of the moment something like "oh baby you make me so wet" over a text message. I just couldn't bring myself to do it thats not what cell phones are for...it seems to me it would be just like putting your phone on vibrate and well you know.....
it weirded the shit out of me and i still don't understand why its newsworthy?!?!?!
xo rachie

F#@*K the POLICE

SO.... on tuesday night while i was deathly ill i decided that it would be a smart idea to go to my dad's house and bake a cake for my cake decorating class on wednesday cause it had to be done anyway and i was not about to miss cake class are you kidding we were gonna be making a rainbow cake....nothing and i mean nothing was gonna stop me. anyway back to the point of this whole rant....i was all hopped up on extra strength Sinutab and probably should not have been driving but had no choice cause my sister was busy and it is ridiculous for my father to come all the way to my house to pick me up...besides he was busy planning his golf trip with his buddies so i drove myself across town to his house made some cake and had a grand old time with nicole (my step sister). 11 rolled around and we were finished with the cake after many diasters (but thats a story for another blog) so i decided that i should go home, so i got in the car and went on my merry way. i had to turn left to get onto 66th street to go home and as i turned i turned a bit widely, thinking nothing of it i drove on singing to deathcab as i drove, and then i noticed the flashing lights behind me.

the cop pulled me over and his first question to me was..."mam do you have a liscence? and i responed through the beginning of tears that of course i did and i didn't understand what the problem was as i slowly took my liscence out of my wallet and handedit to him- he then preceeded to ask me if i was imparied...which i actuallly toook great offense to because as most of you know i would never drink and drive!!!! so anyway i told him i was not drunk and that i had bewen making cake and that if he anted he could call my dad, but he said that he believed me. Then he told me i was a very bad driver and that i should take more lessons....which made me even more upset so i started to cry then and in the depths of my soul i hope i made him feel bad because the police should not be so mean to poor innocent girls like me who actually did nothing wrong. so to the police...you should have gone and pulled over the drunk who was probably 3 blocks from where you pulled me over and taken away his right to drive rather then scaring the living shit out of me because you may have missed arresting someone important while you were wasting your time with me.

xo rachie

ps. on a much lighter note....the computer came and i am in LOVE and my sister is covetess

PORN!!!!

so i was in the car with my sister the other day and she told me that her friend eli and his girlfriend had seen PORN pasted all over the walls of one of the houses down the street from ours. i of course did not believe her in fact i thought that she was full of complete and total bullshit...which she sometimes is....anyways....so i didn't believe her until she told me that she had seen it too and that i should go look in the window of the house three doors down and i would see it too. so being me i went and looked not out of enjoyment just out of curiosity...why would someone ever put porn up on their walls in plain view of the street? i was curious....so i wandered the ten steps down the street and looked in the window and what did i see but....

PORN!!!!

all over the living room walls and thats not even the end of the story.... along with the porn there is also a treadmill which makes me wonder do these boys who live in this house (i know they are boys i have seen them) think that running on this treadmill will make them hot enough or buff enough to actually date girls who look like that...seriously do they realize that those girls don't actually look like that...there is such a thing as airbrushing....anyway i suppose we all have our delusions...but seriously do they really need to be that public....i think not!!!